When dealing with something like cancer there is not much you can do. You're sort of at the mercy of all the doctors and physicians that are treating you. There's not much for you to do except try to take care of yourself the best way you can, which is what I'm trying to do right now. The only thing for me to do is approach this from the diet and nutrition side of things.
There are a lot of side effects I've had to put up with that just made my life miserable. Sometimes to the point of "why me?" The last time in the hospital I came home with swollen feet to where I could barely walk and was also very weak to the point of not being able to use my muscles. So I opt in for a visiting nurse to come and help me out, and help me out she did tremendously.
So for now it has been a while since I've had any treatments of any sort. But I will have to go through radiation because the chemo did not shrink the tumor the way they expected it to. So the only other course of action is radiation, which I am not looking forward to. But it seems it's the only way to make sure the tumor shrinks so they can do surgery to remove it.
For now I have my Thanksgiving free and clear of any side effects from any treatments. I have been eating and gaining some of my strength back. They want me to increase my intake of food and try to gain some weight that I lost. And of course all of this is a challenge for me, but try as I must.
So it's been a while since I've been able to post here and I don't know how long I will be able to continue, but I plan on doing my best to keep everyone posted here. Also this would serve as a way for me to keep my mind and thoughts straight. It will help me to get things out that don't need to be going around and around in my head.
The one thing I do know though is that God is in control and I have to trust him and his word about my healing. I believe he will heal me but I'm going to have to go through what I must and that's going to be the hard part. It's going to take a lot of grace and mercy to get me through. So during this time my faith and trust will be stretched. I just pray that God brings me faith to faith and glory to glory all in His good time.
God is in control of my life, so I am taking this time to study and learn more about him; his word and to grow if faith and trust. I am also praying to come out a different person once I am done with everything and that God will give me new life in Him. So as I go through I will be sharing my journey here with anyone who will happen by to read it. I do pray that I am able to inspire and encourage others through this walk and journey I am currently on.