<![CDATA[Gracious Writings - Blog]]>Sun, 27 Dec 2015 00:07:21 -0800Weebly<![CDATA[A New Journey]]>Thu, 19 Nov 2015 00:20:36 GMThttp://graciouswriting.weebly.com/blog/a-new-journeySince being diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in June I have been undergoing treatment to shrink the tumor.  Because of this new turn in my life it has put me on  a very different life and spiritual journey.  One that forces me to depend on and trust God in a way that haven't before.

When dealing with something like cancer there is not much you can do.  You're sort of at the mercy of all the doctors and physicians that are treating you.  There's not much for you to do except try to take care of yourself the best way you can, which is what I'm trying to do right now.  The only thing for me to do is approach this from the diet and nutrition side of things.
When going through Chemo, it was such a rigorous treatment that I ended up in the hospital each time I had a treatment.  I couldn't keep anything down or on my stomach so they had to hospitalize me for the sake of getting fluids back into my system.  Then each time they would send me home once I could tolerate solid foods.

There are a lot of side effects I've had to put up with that just made my life miserable.  Sometimes to the point of "why me?"  The last time in the hospital I came home with swollen feet to where I could barely walk and was also very weak to the point of not being able to use my muscles.  So I opt in for a visiting nurse to come and help me out, and help me out she did tremendously.

So for now it has been a while since I've had any treatments of any sort.  But I will have to go through radiation because the chemo did not shrink the tumor the way they expected it to.  So the only other course of action is radiation, which I am not looking forward to.  But it seems it's the only way to make sure the tumor shrinks so they can do surgery to remove it.

For now I have my Thanksgiving free and clear of any side effects from any treatments.  I have been eating and gaining some of my strength back.  They want me to increase my intake of food and try to gain some weight that I lost.  And of course all of this is a challenge for me, but try as I must.

So it's been a while since I've been able to post here and I don't know how long I will be able to continue, but I plan on doing my best to keep everyone posted here.  Also this would serve as a way for me to keep my mind and thoughts straight.  It will help me to get things out that don't need to be going around and around in my head.

The one thing I do know though is that God is in control and I have to trust him and his word about my healing.  I believe he will heal me but I'm going to have to go through what I must and that's going to be the hard part.  It's going to take a lot of grace and mercy to get me through.  So during this time my faith and trust will be stretched.  I just pray that God brings me faith to faith and glory to glory all in His good time.

God is in control of my life, so I am taking this time to study and learn more about him; his word and to grow if faith and trust.  I am also praying to come out a different person once I am done with everything and that God will give me new life in Him.  So as I go through I will be sharing my journey here with anyone who will happen by to read it.  I do pray that I am able to inspire and encourage others through this walk and journey I am currently on.
<![CDATA[Leaving the Darkness Behind]]>Tue, 19 May 2015 13:08:00 GMThttp://graciouswriting.weebly.com/blog/leaving-the-darkness-behind"I am the light of the world.  Whoever follows Me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." John 8:12

Shadow"My Sweetheart Shadow"
Now it's time! 

Step out of the shadows  

Into the light  

Leaving the darkness behind.  

Now it's time to cash in on all your beliefs  

And trusts me to reward you for a job well done.  

It's time to really live what you believe.  

It's time to stop hiding and moving amongst the shadows of darkness,  

For what does light have to do with darkness?  

You cannot have both light and darkness

for each one cancels out the other

There is freedom in the light, because light goes anywhere it so desires.  

But darkness: darkness can only exist where there is no light.  

Darkness ceases to exist where there is light.  

Light is more useful than darkness.  

Darkness is only good for hiding secrets of the heart & soul.  

But in the light there are no secrets---of the heart or soul.  

Therefore freedom abounds,  

In the light.  

Now it's time!  

Step out of the shadows  

Into the light,  

Leaving the darkness behind.

"But now it's time to step out of the shadows and into the light;
leaving the darkness behind."  

<![CDATA[Mother's Day 2015]]>Mon, 11 May 2015 15:45:08 GMThttp://graciouswriting.weebly.com/blog/mothers-day-2015Mother's Day 2015Me & (one set of) My Grandbabies!
The years continue to pass and we all continue to get older and grow.  Family will always be family, no matter what may come or happen!

Yesterday was Mother's Day!  I had an awesome weekend with my family. I  am so blessed  to have them in my life. I have a relationship with them that I never got the chance to have with own mother, both of them.  I have the kind of relationship I wish I could have had with my mother.  And with each passing year that Mother's Day comes around I grow more and more grateful for the family I have in all it's craziness, wackiness and with all it's dysfunctions.

Mother's Day 2015Me & Baby Boy #1 'Happy Mother's Day to me!'
Our family is what it is and I love them all for who they are; flaws, faults and all.  God has blessed me with this family of mine. For someone who has always be alone on the inside, God blessed me with a family to truly love unconditionally.

It doesn't matter what they do or don't do. Do I care about what they do or don't do?  Sure I do!  But they are grown now and I have taught them everything in my finite knowledge to teach them.  But now, they are in the hands of God.

I am at a point in my motherhood that I can just love my kids and love on my grandchildren all the more.  Now it's not about what mommy can do for them!  It's more of "Mommy what do you think I should do or shouldn't do".  It does not come often but they know I am open for any questions they have. 

While, we as a family, have many idiosyncrasies and dysfunctional behaviors, we love truly;  we love madly; and we love deeply.  We are a family that is passionate about family, and this is how we do family.  This is our family and we have a darn good time together!  When we get together it's just one huge party and one big happy family!

PictureWe are comfortable as family! Which is the way it should be!
I learned a lot about God and family through having my own family.  Once I began to understand how important family was & is to God, my family became even more of an utmost priority for me, and still is even today.  Just in different ways now!

 I couldn't ask for a better family than the one God has so blessed me with.  I thank Him everyday for them, even though I am not always happy with them.

The Mothers' of our Grandchildren and My Daughter in Laws! I am so happy they are part of my life and our family.

All nine of our grandchildren on Easter Sunday, 2015! I am so humbly and graciously blessed!
Job 33:4
<![CDATA[Lets Play Catch Up]]>Wed, 22 Apr 2015 14:17:16 GMThttp://graciouswriting.weebly.com/blog/lets-play-catch-upI see it has been a while since I was here.  My bag!

Well lets see, what's been going on?  March has come and gone.  Easter and my birthday has come and gone.  And now we are on the last week of April.  Then comes May; summer time; "fun in the sun" time!

Well for Easter, we had a great time.  We were able to get the entire family to church for Easter service, including all the grandchildren.  Then we all went out to dinner!  It was awesome seeing my family all together and enjoying the day together even though it did rain.  This was a life event that I will cherish forever.  Because there are so many of us, if we never get everyone to church together again at least we pulled it off this time!

My birthday was awesome.  Took the day off from church and just took my time getting things done.  My birthday was on Monday but I celebrated it on Sunday with family.  It was great and as usual they always make me laugh.  We are a crazy family when we get together, but we have so much fun and we're good at having fun.  At least we try to be!

My DH gave me a beautiful little houseplant for my birthday.  It's my first houseplant in years and now that we are in a new place with lots of light I can start growing my houseplants again.  I like to decorate with plants and since we live in an apartment I have to find small plants that can handle the environment of apartment living.
African Violet. My 1st house plant. April 2015 Birthday!
And now I am preparing for the summer.  It's been a long time since I've been able to be outside for any length of time, but can't wait to start venturing out again.  I am starting back to driving, slowly but it's a start.  Trying to regain what independence I did have before taking ill.

Grandchildren will be coming out to visit for the weekends and they're going to want to go walking and swimming; ride bikes, etc.  Where we are living now there is plenty of room for them to be active but that also means I have to be active with them.  This is also why I've been working hard to get in better shape.  I am looking forward to using our exercise room and taking advantage of the country setting of where we live to walk, swim, play tennis or volleyball.

I'm looking forward to a fun filled summer!